So last Friday (Friday the 30th) i went to the gym with my friends that I talked about in my last post because we are doing like a loose weight get healthy thing
So we left class at the end of the school day all met in the social centre got our bags and started to walk
The session started at 4mthen ended at 5 and we got there around 4:05
We walked in and there was no one at the desk so we rang the bell and waited
A few seconds later a boy from our school comes out of the door of the gym
So one of my friends asked him do you know where the guys is
He looked at us then looked away with a weird I'm about to laugh sort of grin on his face
He turned back and said I don't know but are you going to the gym
We were like yeah
He laughed a bit then said oh
Just then another boy from our school came out the gym widened his eyes turned back laughed and walked back into the gym
He first boy from our school went back to the gym door and said well the gym is really full but you can check the office upstairs for the guy
We were like oh well we will go to the office
2 of my friends went to the office whilst me and 2 other stayed at the entrance
Whilst they were gone we were listening to the 2 boys in the gym ( the door was left open) and they were basicly just laughing at us and talking bout us
One of my friends that stayed at the entrance has social anxiety it was getting to the point where she was panicking she was almost pacing around and wanted to leave
Being as insecure as we are and having boys laugh at us just made us break basicly
When my other 2 friends got back with a guy I immediately said we have to leave this is so embarrassing
My friend was like oh yeah i know right
The guy went behind the desk and my friend said I don't think we can do this today as the boys threw there said it was packed and we think we might wait till another day
He said okay
Then we asked what other day can we come
He told us and we left to go to a local park
We stayed at the park worrying and arguing during our conversations one of my fried s that went to get the guy said when she came down the stairs she looked in the gym and saw there was 3 boys in our year an an older woman
we later realised our parents were gonna come to pick us up any time soon
We texted our parents where we were and slowly left the park
I just told my mum the place was full so we couldn't go
I was not going to tell her boys made us insecure and laughed
Basicly this whole week end I have felt horrible
These boys laugh at us at schoo for being the way we r now they laugh at us for trying to change that
I made me so angry and emotional
I was finally making a difference in my life then it was blown to shreds
We hae been trying to cheer each other up but for me it's not working
Writing on this blog does tho
Tommorow we are thinking of going back to the gym
This time we are gonna
- keep our heads held high ( hence the chin up buttercup title )
- not care about them
Because
Those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind
We are doing this to make us happy and so we will
It's okay not to be okay but just remember one day you will be okay
This is gonna get a bit forceful if yah know what I mean but the next sent an e is gonna have swear word
If they do sh*t to you then they don't mean sh*t to you
If they care bout you care bout them
If they don't care bout you don't care bout them
They just don't understand your story what you've been threw
Thanks for reading guys
If you have any stories or experiences of you own please leave them in the comments below
Bye guysxxx!!!
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