Saying goodbye part 1

Hey guys 

Yes it's a Monday and I am posting this I have started to want to relax more on Sunday's and get into the work way of things on Mondays so since I am getting on and doing stuff I died to do this blog post

Also I want to do a few parts to this section seeing it from different angles

Recently one of my guy friends who I have know since I was around 3 or 4 moved away 

The school I go to has recently got a new head master (principle) and he has decide to have far less creative and expressive subject and focus on academic ones

Which means many of the pupils are getting really annoyed since they can't study the subjects they need to get certain qualifications

This friend has always been a more outgoing creative guy and since he was not allowed to study the subjects he needed he decide to ,I've to a different school 

Which ment the rest of his friends ( including me) had to say goodbye  

When we were around 3 or 4 me and him both did highland dancing ( form of Scottish dance) 

We both went to different primary schools ( elementary) So we never kept talking

A few years later when we were around 7 (I think) we both got piano lessons from the same teacher 

After that we had a few school events at the sam time 

But when we moved up to secondary school one of my bestfriends ( let's call her bands) became really good friends with him 

Therefore since I am friends with her me and him also became friends ( not extremely close but I could be weird around him and have a decent conversation) 

We also sis the school show together so spoke a lot 

Even now we still speak since we have many groupchats

Lately we have all been to his house a few times saying goodbye 

I feel really bad for bands because him and her were really close and now he's just gone 

Saying goodbye to friends is so hard ( flashback to my blog post about how I had fallen out with Lauren) 

But it's something you have to do 

my guy friend ( let's call him minion) 

Made the right decision if he was wanting to have a worth while career for himself 

And me and Lauren fell out so we could move on do something different make more memories 

Saying goodbye can be so hard feeling like your never gonna see or speak to someone again but It has to be done 

It can sometimes feel so hard but it life and life goes on so you should to 

Thank you for reading 

Have a good day or night wherever you live 

Next week might be more goodbye talks or it might be something more uplifting 

         

                                                                Bye guysxxx!!! 

Moving on

Hey guys 

First of all massive apology 

Yes I skipped a week of writing a post I decided not to write it on the Sunday and that I would write it on the Monday truth is last week was one of the busiest weeks ever so it never got writen 

But 

I have quite a few ideas in my mind for upcoming blog posts which I hope you will like

Anyway this past week I have been obsessed with the song 'Miss Movin On' by Fifth Harmony 

( especially Aubrey millers cover of it) 

And well it got me thinking I hate change but it has to happen 

I really want to make so many changes in my life 

But 

Change for me is so scary 

I have decide I'm not going to let everyone around me change and me stay in this same boring old faze

Whe I was growing up me and my family always drove around the country together during school breaks

Now we don't we have grown apart and that's one change I didn't mind

I don't know why but I don't mind drifting away from my parents ( I don't want to drift away from mys sister though we are actually quite close) 

I could legit leave this country tomorrow and only miss a few people 

I want to make a plan now so that I can make my life change 

I've been looking at apartments in Los Angeles, California I know I'm only 15(this year)  and can't move out for another year 

But for ages now I have wanted to to LA and I have decide that i am 100% going in 2018 without a doubt 

It's my biggest dream no one is going to stop me achive it 

When I'm out there I'm going to look at apartments if I like them enough I will get one

I obviously want to go to university if I can't get into one in America I will come back home complete the courses I want but in a university far from my parents 

Then move out to LA once I graduate 

I don't want to stay this unhappy with life forever I'm going to move on to where I want to be in life 

I recommend you should to 

as I mentioned earlier Aubrey millers cover of Miss Movin On inspired me a lot 

During the video it shows her going from being a ballerina to Movin on to dance more of a hip hop on the streets emotional dance style 

Showing that she didn't want to continue to do ballet any more she wanted to express herself 

With me I don't want to live in this one boring place anymore I want to move somewhere completely different start a new adventure where no one knows me, my personality or my story 

Movin on form one thing to another can be scary but when it's not you know it's right 

Be the change you want to see 

Don't let others influence you

If it's what u want to do then go for it 

In the comments let me know if you are gonna make a change or if you already have?

Tell me you perspective on change?

If you want to move on how ?

I'm here to listen so let's communicate

Thank you for reading 

Another post next Sunday 

                                                                 Bye guysxxx!!!

Chin up buttercup

Hey guys 

So last Friday (Friday the 30th) i went to the gym with my friends that I talked about in my last post because we are doing like a loose weight get healthy thing 

So we left class at the end of the school day all met in the social centre got our bags and started to walk 

The session started at 4mthen ended at 5 and we got there around 4:05 

We walked in and there was no one at the desk so we rang the bell and waited 

A few seconds later a boy from our school comes out of the door of the gym 

So one of my friends asked him do you know where the guys is 

He looked at us then looked away with a weird I'm about to laugh sort of grin on his face 

He turned back and said I don't know but are you going to the gym 

We were like yeah 

He laughed a bit then said oh 

Just then another boy from our school came out the gym widened his eyes turned back laughed and walked back into the gym 

He first boy from our school went back to the gym door and said well the gym is really full but you can check the office upstairs for the guy 

We were like oh well we will go to the office 

2 of my friends went to the office whilst me and 2 other stayed at the entrance 

Whilst they were gone we were listening to the 2 boys in the gym ( the door was left open) and they were basicly just laughing at us and talking bout us 

One of my friends that stayed at the entrance has social anxiety it was getting to the point where she was panicking she was almost pacing around and wanted to leave 

Being as insecure as we are and having boys laugh at us just made us break basicly 

When my other 2 friends got back  with a guy I immediately said we have to leave this is so embarrassing 

My friend was like oh yeah i know right 

The guy went behind the desk and my friend said I don't think we can do this today as the boys threw there said it was packed and we think we might wait till another day 

He said okay

Then we asked what other day can we come 

He told us and we left to go to a local park 

We stayed at the park worrying and arguing during our conversations one of my fried s that went to get the guy said when she came down the stairs she looked in the gym and saw there was 3 boys in our year an an older woman 

we later realised our parents were gonna come to pick us up any time soon

We texted our parents where we were and slowly left the park 

I just told my mum the place was full so we couldn't go 

I was not going to tell her boys made us insecure and laughed 

Basicly this whole week end I have felt horrible 

These boys laugh at us at schoo for being the way we r now they laugh at us for trying to change that 

I made me so angry and emotional 

I was finally making a difference in my life then it was blown to shreds 

We hae been trying to cheer each other up but for me it's not working 

Writing on this blog does tho 

Tommorow we are thinking of going back to the gym 

This time we are gonna 

- keep our heads held high ( hence the chin up buttercup title ) 

- not care about them 

Because 

Those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind 

We are doing this to make us happy and so we will 

It's okay not to be okay but just remember one day you will be okay 

This is gonna get a bit forceful if yah know what I mean but the next sent an e is gonna have swear word 

If they do sh*t to you then they don't mean sh*t to you 

If they care bout you care bout them 

If they don't care bout you don't care bout them 

They just don't understand your story what you've been threw 

Thanks for reading guys 

If you have any stories or experiences of you own please leave them in the comments below 

                                                                Bye guysxxx!!!